Category: Newsletter

summer and fall 2024

Catching Up

First, let me acknowledge the newsletter has been a bit more “irregular” than originally intended. Oh well. Hopefully I’ll get them out on a slightly quicker cadence going forward.

Summer Vacation – Sunny Palm Springs and A Visit Home

Last spring Em and I took advantage of her work trip to Orange County to spend a long weekend in Palm Springs. Freddie and I drove down with her, spending a night in Santa Barbara along the way. I worked from the hotel for a couple days and explored the area a bit on my own while Em worked and went to vendor dinners. Then we made the drive to Palm Springs on a Friday afternoon alongside what seemed like half of L.A.

We went to Palm Springs in search of heat. We only get about two weeks of it in San Francisco, and that’s in October, so by April we sorely miss the sun. We sure found it. It wasn’t the height of summer, but each day was still near 100 degrees F. Mostly we lounged at the pool (doused in sunscreen). I think I finished 3 or 4 books. One morning we braved the heat to walk around some nice areas of town with shops and restaurants. Em even visited the famous luxury outlets one morning and scored a few deals for me at Wilson.

Sometimes I want an adventure, but sometimes I just want a vacation. This was definitely the second and a good one at that.

In late June and early July the timing of another work trip for Emily worked out well for a visit home. This time we boarded Freddie, and I flew to TN while Em worked from New York. She met me for a couple days in West TN before we made our way over to her family in East TN. We always love trips to see our family and this time had two new members to meet. For a time we were getting a new cousin every few months!

Seeing our friends Nicole and Philip in Knoxville and celebrating Em’s 30th birthday with them was another big plus!

Outside Lands – Isn’t that sweet, I guess so

So far we have enjoyed living near a music festival. Each year the Outside Lands weekend is a little bit loud. We get an influx of visitors to our generally sleepy neighborhood. Some people complain, but really it is kind of nice to have some crowds around for a bit.

Best of all, we can easily just buy a day pass for whatever day suits us best. We walk down to the park for the day, listen to music, eat some festival food, and then walk home to sleep in our own bed. Soooo much nicer than a sweltering tent at Bonnaroo after (maybe) a bucket shower.

There is low pressure on which artists to see since we don’t have to make a full trip out of it. No stress, no hectic running from one show to the other, and rarely any schedule conflicts. We just pick a few artists that sound interesting and make sure we have time for the headliner.

Speaking of which, Sabrina Carpenter absolutely killed it! No notes. If I’m not mistaken this was her first big festival performance. She even brought out Kasey Musgraves for a song. All in all, it was an excellent way to spend a day in Golden Gate Park.

Back into Bikes

In this last year I’ve had the pleasure of diving back into the world of bikes, this time with a new fervor. I used to really enjoy mountain biking and did just a little of my own maintenance on my 2012 Giant Talon hardtail. After we moved to Oakland I found myself biking much less and really only to get around town. The mountain bike was a bit overkill, and I was devoting more time to climbing instead of riding. I made the decision to sell the bike and buy something simpler like a rigid frame commuter not long before we moved across the bay. I wanted something cheap and easy to maintain that wouldn’t get stolen.

A year and a half flew by, and still I had no bike despite Em and I often talking about how nice it would be for getting around our neighborhood. One day I stumbled upon the xbiking subreddit and immediately knew I had found a new hobby. The sub was full of people who bought (usually) cheap and (usually) old bikes and fixed them up as solid cruisers/rat bikes. Occasionally more capable builds pop up from gravel and trail oriented enthusiasts. Mainly they all just like to ride and wrench on bikes in their free time.

Inspired, I picked up a free hybrid GT from the early 90s and got a good deal on mid 90s Specialized Stumpjumper (the names from this era are especially entertaining). I learned a lot from these two bikes and eventually got to riding. I picked up a few more bikes, rode more, and wrenched more. I got onto some gravel trails, tried bikepacking, and re-ignited that childlike joy that bikes can bring.

Emily started riding with me around Richmond and Sunset, and it quickly became clear that her heavy beach cruiser wouldn’t cut it on the San Francisco hills. Time for a new project!

After watching Marketplace and Craigslist for a few months, I found a steel 90s Bridgestone CB1 in need of work and offered at a good price. Best of all, it was red. I had a few other bikes to fix up at the time and tried my first oxalic acid bath. I got a free kiddie pool from a coworker, mixed up the solution, and soaked three bike frames to remove all their surface and internal rust. I clear-coated Emily’s bike and spray-painted the exposed steel on the others. Then came the rebuild.

Emily’s bike originally came with black bars and an ugly stem. I switched those out for silver ones. Also moved some nicer components and brakes over to her bike. Now for the fun part. I got some chartreuse cable housing and teal grips and pedals for a nice pop of color. Added a rack, basket, and the bell from Em’s cruiser. Bam, top tier xbike if I do say so myself. The final touch will be some teal tires that I spotted at a bike shop not too long ago.

I have a couple other projects in the works, but mostly I’m looking forward to racking up some miles now in Marin County.

Check out some photos from summer and fall 2024

Thinking Deeper

Our Attention is Under Siege

In my last newsletter, I laid out a framework for intentional living that I call The Attention Matrix. Why go to such effort? Is this pedantic framework necessary? After all, if you have important things to do, just do them, right? Who needs to think about how or why? Unfortunately in today’s world of information overload and ubiquitous digital media access, most of us have to think about this to some degree. Rare is the individual who remains unaffected by social media, 24 hours news, mindless web surfing, binge watching, or addictive gaming. Even if you are the cool guy/gal who has completely disconnected or never plugged in at all, there are other forces working subtly behind the scenes to steal your attention and time. We are all besieged.

Some of us feel like we are hunkered down behind castle walls, sheltering in place and trying desperately to focus. Siege engines fire upon us from outside, occasionally launching a pile of severed heads or a video of a cute dog right over the wall. That steals our attention for a while, but we clean up the mess, pass the dog video along to our friends, and fight on.

Others accept their fate and open the city gates wide, allowing the enemy to stroll through waving vibrant banners laden with ads for the latest Shein trend or the mobile video game all their friends are playing. Who can blame them for embracing their perceived fate? We have all been sold the same myth of the inevitability of technological “progress” after all.

Many people never even realized the invasion happened. Their city was taken quietly by clever political maneuvering. Strangers were welcomed in as simple merchants offering new and exciting wares. The merchants stayed and slowly inserted themselves into positions of power. They now run the city while the old ruler sits on a throne staring at a screen all day, believing they are in control, delusional to the reality.

Sometimes the war for our own attention feels hopeless. That is by design. That is why this fight is important. The constant battle against distraction doesn’t have to be a way of life. There is a possible future in which we don’t have to claw back our time with a strategy worthy of Napoleon (or maybe we’re the Russians in that analogy). But for the present, that is our reality, and we must deal with it.

To fully reclaim our attention, we first have to recognize and understand our besiegers. Who are they, and what are their strategies, tactics, and weapons? The newsletters to follow will provide a very short overview, a briefing just to get us up to speed.

The first question (Who besieges us?) is probably the easier one. Our attention is under siege by Profiteers. By this, I mean the entire advertising industry and the tech companies who feed it. They profit off of a model of attention extraction that is detrimental to our individual and collective autonomy. Although less obviously, our attention is also besieged by our Cultural and Physical Environments. In the next newsletter we will start with the profiteers.

If you want to know more about this newsletter, just check out the idea issue and please subscribe for future newsletters.

spring 2024

Catching Up

Fly Casting Class in Golden Gate Park

In March, around my birthday, I convinced Emily to join me for a free fly casting class in Golden Gate Park.

The Golden Gate Angling and Casting Club is the largest fly fishing club in the world and is located just a mile from our house. Each 2nd Saturday of the month they host free casting classes of all levels for the community. We spent a couple hours learning and practicing the Rollout cast and the Pick Up and Lay Down cast alongside other beginners.

I can safely say that experience casting a bait-caster or spinner reel does not translate to casting a fly-rod. However, getting stuck in trees seems to be universal to all casting.

Mariah the Scientist Concert in Downtown SF

Wednesday, March 13, Em and I saw Mariah the Scientist perform at the Regency Ballroom in downtown San Francisco. It was the smallest concert we’ve been to in a while, a venue with mostly standing room and a small wrap-around balcony with a few rows of seating.

We weren’t prepared to wait through 3 openers and should have just shown up an hour and a half late to see only Mariah. The next day our joints and feet were sore from just standing so long.

Even so, Mariah put on a great show and sounded amazing despite dealing with a cough. We would love to see her perform in her hometown of Atlanta one day when we’re back in the south.

Check out her songs Beetlejuice, Bout Mine, and 77 Degrees.

Kitts SF Visit

We enjoyed hosting Emily’s parents last April for their 3rd Bay Area visit. In the past we have taken trips to Sonoma and Big Sur, toured Alcatraz and the Botanical Garden, hiked in Muir Woods, and explored Oakland, but there is always more to do here.

Dining in Chinatown and Sausalito, hiking Tomales Point in Point Reyes National Seashore, and watching our first Giants game at Oracle Park highlighted this visit.

Check out some photos from Spring 2024

Thinking Deeper

The Attention Matrix – A Personal Framework for Intentional Living

Attention spans are shrinking, or at least they seem to be. Most of us have heard about the study that claims the average human attention span is now less than that of a goldfish. Other studies, like those conducted by Gloria Marks reported in Attention Span, suggest that our attention spans have been shrinking at a concerning pace in the digital age, especially since the rise of smartphones. Some of these studies have been thoroughly debunked (sound fishy?), and others only consider very specific and limited definitions of attention. There is still plenty of room for debate on what all these studies really mean for our individual and collective attention spans.

Science is slow to draw conclusions and should be, but if you are like me, at some point you have been working on a difficult task—writing an important email, finishing up a homework assignment, drafting a report for work—and your mind keeps wandering off, usually to your buzzing phone or maybe that Netflix show you want to get back to binging. Your work takes three to four times as long as it should, or you completely abandon it after checking a text on your phone and scrolling aimlessly on TikTok for an hour.

Around 2018, I began noticing these moments more and more often. Frustrated, I began to recognize all the different cues that stole my attention from the task at hand and pulled me towards Twitter, Pinterest, and Digg which all at least felt more informative and productive than Instagram and Facebook. Around the same time I stumbled onto Deep Work by Cal Newport and started thinking more seriously about personal productivity and time management. I started building skills and implementing habits to help me focus with intention. Years later, directing my attention is still an ongoing challenge, and I have been reading and thinking about it a lot.

The broader concept of attention spans many scientific and philosophical fields, but I just wanted a practical understanding that would help me in the real world. With that goal in mind, I developed a simple framework I call ‘The Attention Matrix’. If you are familiar with the Eisenhower Matrix then you can imagine this as a slight variation which deals with attention management instead of task management, really two related concepts.

You could go down quite the rabbit hole on what ‘Attention’ means with resources like this: Stanford Philosophy Intro to Attention. However, I will just stick to a loose and pragmatic definition for my framework. I will consider ‘Attention’ to be the combination of our cognitive awareness and perceptual filtering. This may be voluntarily or involuntarily directed and may be active or passive, with active requiring more effort to sustain focus. Attention is often broken into categories of Focused, Sustained, Selective, Alternating, and Divided. The matrix applies to all of these except maybe Divided which should be mostly avoided anyway.

Now for the matrix.

Attention Type	Voluntary	Involuntary
Active	1. Intense concentration on cognitively or physically demanding tasks. This is sustainable focus that progresses balanced life goals.	2. Also defined by intense concentration, but the duration is not controlled. Interferes with balanced life goals
Passive	3. Deliberate focus on cognitively light and restorative pastimes. Replenishes cognitive resources and makes room for creativity.	4. Can be thought of as distractions. Undermine rest, add stress, and limit progress.

Remember the earlier example of checking a text message and accidentally losing an hour to social media? This represents the Involuntary and Passive quadrant of the matrix. This could also be spending six hours binging a Netflix show when you meant to watch one episode and had other plans for your time. My guess is that this state is very much a problem of modernity. I can’t imagine most humans before the age of knowledge work really had the ‘luxury’ of being able to spend so much time in mindless consumption. Sure people read books, but I don’t know that employers or teachers had to deal with books the way they now have to deal with smartphone addiction.

Not much better but often overlooked is the Involuntary and Active quadrant (2) which usually involves losing yourself in some difficult task and spending much more time on it than you intended. For example, you blow through lunch and the time your prescheduled workout trying to solve some frustrating but non-urgent problem at work. More on this later.

Then there is the Passive and Voluntary quadrant which includes two subcategories. The first is Entertainment. To live in Quadrant 3, it must hold our attention and adhere to clear start and stop times. Watching a football game or a TV show (even binging the show if that was your intention) are a couple examples. This even includes social media if the time is spent with intention and doesn’t affect your ability to do other things you want or need to do. This quadrant is important because we need rest and restoration after long periods of intense focus in Quadrant 1. Even if we control our focused time well, we will still burn out if we are only forcing our minds to focus on difficult things all the time. I’m not saying we all need to crash in front of the TV every night for four hours, just that entertainment is fine if it’s used with intention. This takes us to the second subcategory of Quadrant 3: Boredom. Our brains need to relax and spend time in the default mode, which can be accomplished by building periods of rest and non-focus into our days when we aren’t consuming ANY INFORMATION originating outside our own heads. According to Gloria Marks, rote activity like cleaning or laundry is a great way to do this. So is achieving flow in some hobby or simply walking. The key is that you are not listening to music or podcasts, reading, or watching anything. You have to let your thoughts flow of their own accord while actually letting your mind be slightly distracted by low-level physical work.

Active and Voluntary is probably the most important quadrant. This intentional direction of attention towards cognitively difficult tasks is what allows us to accomplish great things. It’s essential for learning and completing high quality work and includes many forms of quality time engaging with other human beings. Unfortunately, this category suffers the most from our modern troubles with attention. Our brains our wired to seek newness, so how can writing a technical report compete with the dopamine-fueled thrill of finding the next Tweet to send you into 3 hours of righteous rage?

Some of this seems pretty obvious. We all want to use our time well and avoid distractions. Nothing new there. But the matrix let’s us call out two important but often overlooked aspects of attention. One, a mindset of relentless productivity and a lack of self-control can easily push us into Quadrant 2 where we spend way too much time single-mindedly hammering away at one project. The occasional afternoon may get away from us, but consistently falling into this trap leads to burnout and severely detracts from other important parts of our lives like relationships and health.

The matrix also shines a spotlight on Quadrant 3, about which the productivity-minded among us may often forget. We need time and activities that restore our cognitive energy. Part of this can be television or social media in controlled amounts, but really we should think of this category as hobbies of passive appreciation. I think it’s important

Why does any of this matter? Simply put, our time, energy, and lives on earth are finite, so I want to be more intentional with them. As Oliver Burkman argues in Four Thousand Weeks, there is no meaning without finitude. It is the limitation of time that gives purpose to how we choose to spend it. This means pursuing more time in Quadrants 1 and 3, states of voluntary active and passive attention, and cutting out the rest. I will devote more time to the question of why I believe this is important later on, but for now just know that I do. If you find any of this interesting, call me during my phone hours to chat or text/email me to set up another time so we can discuss it!

And if you want to know more about this newsletter, just check out the idea issue.

the idea

You’re writing a newsletter? Why?

tl;dr I don’t use social media much and would prefer to catch up with you over the phone, zoom, or in person. I’m hoping the newsletter will spark more of these chats! Call me any weekday from 6-7pm CT, or contact me to schedule another time.

This newsletter idea was partially born out of Cal Newport’s thoughts on engaging in the “social internet” to connect with friends and build meaningful relationships without dealing with the potential pitfalls of mass social media. I’m already pretty bad at updating social media and often find the transaction of likes to be unsatisfying when I do share things. I get so much more from the phone calls I share with family and friends.

Committing to an occasional newsletter also creates an incentive to reflect on the ways I’m spending my time, whether that means quality time with loved ones, personal projects, or career goals. I believe this reflection will have a grounding effect and encourage a more intentional life.

If you read anything here that interests you or just want to catch up, please reach out! I would love to hear about what you’re up to as well.

Well, what will you write about?

tl;dr Recent personal life events, hobbies, and other interests.

The full answer requires some context. Although I’m terrible at updating my Instagram, my bio is a nice and concise summation of who I am. It simply reads, “Expert woolgatherer, hobbyist everything else.”

“Woolgathering” has been my favorite word since the day I saw it on Webster Dictionary’s ‘Word of the Day’ where the definition read, “indulgence in idle daydreaming.” Some people fix their attention on the physical world around them, but I mostly find myself drifting inward, Walter Mitty style, and playing out ridiculous scenarios in my head related to all the things I love doing. Climber, woodworker, and novelist are just a few of the many careers I have explored deeply through idle daydreaming.

Sounds a little sad until you consider the second half of my bio: “hobbyist everything else.” Despite being often lost in thought, I have collected a few hobbies over the years that keep me grounded and connected to the real world. Here’s a hefty list of things I’ve done or tried with varying success: mountain biking, climbing, hiking, backpacking, truck camping, couchsurfing, fishing, hunting, cooking, weight lifting, running, yoga, breath work, fiction writing, landscape and travel photography, Dungeons and Dragons, furniture building, spoon carving, cartography, leisure reading, journaling, swimming, painting, drawing, slacklining (took about 15 minutes to get a concussion), blogging, filmmaking, piano, bonsai, archery, knife throwing, skateboarding, portrait photography, web design, programming, and podcasting.

I quit some of these nearly as soon as I started. Many get cycled in and out depending on the season. Writing, reading, climbing, carving, photography, and a few others have become regular practice, and I’m excited to occasionally explore them in the Thinking Deeper section of the newsletter as I explore them in real life (not just in idle daydreams).

Most newsletters will just focus on recent events and maybe some photos. Just think of this as Catching Up.

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Okay, okay, I kind of get it. What makes it “Irregular”?

Two things. One, having a newsletter as just a regular person might seem a bit odd. Most of us stick to social media unless we’ve built some kind of audience. I hope that over time it becomes more regular for “average Joe’s” like myself to share newsletters and blogs just like in the early 2000’s. Two, the schedule will be irregular. I hope to send a newsletter roughly once a quarter, but I’m not committing to any strict publishing schedule. That also means I won’t be spamming your inbox every single day or week. That’s pretty much it.